Hello everyone! I think I may have consumed some gluten as I look cheeky but rather puffy – doh!
I’m so happy the evenings have gotten cooler in Manchester, Uk but I was only dressed all snuggly for about an hour because we had the back door open as someone was cooking (tiny kitchen, no extraction fan).
It’s that time of year where I get a bit obsessed with cozy cushions. Both sofas and my bed are full, so now I’ve filed an entire chair with them so there’s no room for an actual person!
Floor cushions are a thing right?! ☺️
Don’t you love how old furniture in a house evolves?
[Using my skeleton towel as a tablecloth for the spooky season]
Originally a pine antique dressing table, then a house-phone stand to which I added an owl lamp and a giant ceramic mushroom, and now people use this when making important (mobile) phone calls and taking notes, or as a calm space to sit next to when reading a book to rest their cuppa tea and snacks on 🤗
I’d love to know how your home is slowly evolving to suit you?
So this is me when I was about 21. I loved my cute outfit (still do) and took my figure for granted BUT I really disliked my natural looks. So I made myself look like this instead. 🥺
From bullying which started in nursery (nursery!) I was asked ‘What are you?!’ (meaning what mixture of races) and later told as a teen ‘You people aren’t welcome here’ by groups of adults on the street and teens quoting their parents.
THE MAKEOVER/OTHER So I straightened my natural dark, curly hair (and eventually put terrible yellow-blonde streaks in it); made my narrow mono-lid eyes look bigger by exaggerating my expression and clever makeup (which I’d reapply every hour); plucked my thick, dark eyebrows to nothing; contoured the crap out of my nose (obsessively checking it) and did this, frankly weird arse ‘smile’ so my lips looked thinner.
THE SAD THING IS, IT ACTUALLY WORKED! I got attention from white guys who only wanted one thing, often because they’d ‘never had a girl who’s exotic’ 😒🤮 African and Caribbean men said things like they were ‘proud’ to be with me as I had ‘lighter skin’ but they still thought I would be ‘acceptable’ to their family. 🙃🤯
AFTER QUITE A FEW YEARS several guys had asked why I wasn’t being my natural self and asked if I was ashamed of my heritage (still don’t know what it is to this day btw). I realised I was making myself MORE miserable by altering my natural appearance and I started questioning why I was doing this to myself?!
FINALLY I REALISED I’D RATHER BE LIKED BY FEW, FOR MY TRUE SELF, THAN LIKED (ONLY ON THE SURFACE) BY MANY.
TO EVERYONE READING THIS I promise you, you will find people who really appreciate you. More importantly, YOU need to appreciate you. 🤗
BUT if you have something that troubles you because it doesn’t seem to fit or doesn’t work well, I totally understand why you might want that particular thing altered a little. No judgment 💞
JUST PLEASE DON’T LOOSE YOUR WONDERFUL, INDIVIDUAL SELF.
I was lucky to find this pizza from @fireaway_mcr_fallowfield one of the few places in Manchester where you can order a gluten free base with vegan cheese (for extra dosh).
There’s lots of pre-made options but if you go down the ‘create your own’ route you get to choose from lots of toppings.
I learned that if you type the food you want into Deliveroo, say ‘pizza’ and you click on the number of that food available (rather than the names of the actual eateries), you can the specify lots of options, such as ‘dietary’ needs. Bingo!
I love taking shots of sunsets and the moon by just standing in the street (with assistance as I can’t concentrate on my balance and the subject at the same time lol). I missed the full moon a few nights ago so here’s a sunset for you.
Taken with an iPad mini (same as all of my shots on Insta).
Quick question: Do I look like a XXX worker dressed like this? I had big black rocker boots on btw.
This is what I’ve been basically mistaken for TWICE by l@w enforcement.
(NO SHADE TO XXX WORKERS AT ALL)
Because I’ve been walking around the neighbourhood I’ve lived in (safely) all my life, in the evening, I’ve been stopped and repeatedly questioned as if I’m guilty of that, then told ‘well if your not out here working, why are you dressed like that?’ 🤯 They’ve insisted they drive me back home immediately ‘for my safety’.
When I’ve said I’m actually going to the shops/takeaway (both times), they’ve looked annoyed (like I’ve wasted THEIR time) and apparently weren’t remotely concerned about my ‘safety’ anymore. 😑
I’ve also been followed around shops by security, repeatedly when dressed like this.
So if you have an okay figure and dress a bit alternative, you are obviously on the game and a thief! 🤣